My dear, it was like this, that all I knew I had to go away from the cult, and do so without any further begging or relying on anyone, and there was no other way but God. My position was as impossible as impossible it is to be God, and entire country and cult against just one guy, my child, never follow my footsteps, I had to make a strong case for the choice of religion, and doesn’t matter where you are, you’ll always have, other choices.